First Bad Incident in 2010

Back to u guys... Shock? Unbelievable? Yeah it’s happened this morning. When I wake up this morning, as usual I check my hand phone. Owkay, its New Year so no doubt there are lots of messages from my colleague. Then it was recorded that I have a missed call from one of them. I send a message to ask back. Just wanna make sure that there is no important thing due to our campus life. Guess what??

I was attacked by his special which I’m not sure either she is his wife or girlfriend. She investigated me like I’m a guilty person. Hello?? Who you think you are?? If she think that I’m interested to her BF, sorry to say, hey ladies you really did a big mistakes! What a shame to behave like your way. I have no feeling at all to that guy, he’s one of my friends and he will always be my friend. If you are so concern about other girl that might be admires him, I personally recommend that you should prison him and never let him go far away from your house! So he will just see your face every second and you can monitor him without any worries. Good idea right?

Actually it wasn’t my first time. Before this, my best friend girlfriend asks me to never contact with my best friend anymore. Hey! What a silly girl! I’m not stealing your boyfriend. We are friend and could these dumb girls understand this fact? Ladies, I personally don’t do relationship for this moment. But do I have to let the whole world know about it just to make sure that you will understand that?

I won’t take your special away from your life. Because I know how it feels when we lost someone that we really love when it was stolen from us by third party. And because of the reason also, I’m not interested to have any relationship for now. I still can feel the pain. Maybe I can call the feel as sweet pain...

So, don’t worry, I won’t hurt girls feeling. Because I’m a girl and like I said just now, I don’t do relationship for this moment.

Who Is Him??

Lately, when I try to rewind all my memory when I was 18, I remember about him. Someone that I never met before, but talk to him by messaging. Honestly, I was angry at first when he messages me and ask to be friend of mine. I don’t know who you are, so why should I? But after a few days when he never give-up from trying, I finally say YES. We kept contact each other, I have to say that I’m comfortable with him.

Everything is just fine for a moment until 1 day when we have no class because of MUET test. I gave his number to my friend and my friends try to flirt with him. He asked ‘who is this?’ And my friend text him back. He replied ‘malas nak layan’. Wow! I’m impressed with him. But there is one thing that I never thinks of it. He messages me and ask me ‘who the hell is she between us?’. I’m speechless.

Is he upset? Is he angry? I don’t know. And what I know is that, I’m regret of my own behaviour. So not matured at all. I should trust him right? I’m just curious who he is. I just know that he pursuing his study in architecture at UM on that time. I don’t know either he’s lying or not. Is it my fault when I really want to know about him? But like English man said, curiosity kills the cat. And yes, I’m just so dead!

After a month, I message him back. Ask for forgiveness but he’s quite cold and I guess it’s over. It’s not like I’m so desperate to be with him. I feel bad to lost a good friend like him even though I didn’t know the real him. Well, it was my last conversation with a person who introduced himself as Zanman Brandon.

Well, if this guy is really exist in this world, sorry for the silly thing I’ve done. If you read this or maybe others that know this person, I want to let him know that it’s nice to be his friend even just for a moment. If you are still willing to be a friend of mine, find me either through facebook or myspace, because you will always be my friend forever. You can count on me. Wishing you has a wonderful journey for 2010 and may God bless you, no matter what.

Life is Fairy Tale??

Back to u guys. Question to ponder, does life a fairy tale?? I don’t know what kind of question is this but something that I really understand is that, people love to make dreams about the entire scene on movie or chapter in the novels. Am I right? When we see prince charming hold his beautiful princess, we will imagine that the person on the scene is us. This rarely happens to guys but almost happen to all girls. I have to admit that sometimes I love to put myself on the situation and try to solve a conflict with my own way. Then we start to mumbling ‘stupid, don’t do this. U should do that’. Am I right?

Girls story or maybe we can say, comedy romantic like Wild Child, Confession of Teenage Drama Queen, The Proposal, 17 Again and others are the movies that all girls out there waiting for. With handsome guy as its hero, of course they will start smiling and imagine the girl is them. But, can we really make the story become reality in our life?

Maybe Yes maybe No. Some of the scene is nearly to us, maybe it happens to us accidentally or unconsciously. But the theory handsome guy will fall in love with cute girl, heroin make hero thrill to her, then come the third party whose admire the hero or heroine, then conflict, then back together, live happily ever after, not all these scene will happen to our real life. That is why our life actually is not a fairy tale.

When you fall and you hope that angel will come to your side and brings the miracle that you need, it won’t happen. When you walk and you imagine that all guys attracted to you, then one perfect guy will notice you and offer you a date in front of others, do you think it will really happen? Throw it away.

Maybe yes you are beautiful but are you really sure that all guys whose staring at you is really feel that you are so gorgeous or they just take a look for a moment and then make their own judgement? Well, it happens in my campus life.

There is one girl that I can’t say that she’s beautiful or not but I can claim that so so. Means, when she put her make-up away, she’s not beautiful at all. Wearing a make-up, try to walk like a model which we can notice that the way she walk is not natural at all, looking to other girls like they all just not as perfect as her, wearing heel even she just go to cafe, well I think this is too much. Envy?? Not at all. Not my business to analyze her. But I guess she needs a lesson to be a bit humble. But never mind, do I care about her? Just a little piece of example that actually there are some people that try to bring the love or diva scene in their real life. Acting like they are perfect but in deep they are just plastic. Talking about other appearance is sucks, think that all guys are attracted to her, OMG they just double-jerk!

Well, I’m stand with my Principe. Just be yourself without pretending to be what one is not. And here I am, with my own way, thought, life, image.. Do I look like I care about what they say? Probably No, because I am what I am. Some of us will think that it’s better to duplicate other personality just to fit ourselves and belong to the group. But the thing that you should aware is that, when you try to copycat others, you will not be as same or as good as her, but you will only be a clown. A very dumb clown! Just think that you will good in your own way, your life is not a fairy tale like one of Barbie Story, Popular people with Geek People can’t be together. No, our life is reality, not even close like Barbie or Snow White or Cinderella. So that, doesn’t be so obsessed to have a fairy tale life, because the miracle will only come from HIM, not what other perception on you. Be like Betty, she don’t care about other perception, she just the way she is. And you will find, life is just wonderful without fairy tale dreams....

Aku, Beliau & Kampus

Aq rase lame dah tak update blog ny. Bz gle dengan LIFE aq yang memang tahap gile bingit. Campus life aq – kuliah ary2, assignment, tutorial, assessment, presentation, quiz, test, then exam, finally result. Yang last part thu, sendiri mau gigil tak gigil la bile tgk result. So far, this semester aq syukur gile la, tak bungkus macam mase 3rd semester sampai ade 1 paper kene repeat ag. Yg ny, aq tak bley salahkan diri sendiri sbb lebey dari separuh kelas bungkus! Yang lulus pown taik gigi jep la. Sebab ape? Lecturer aq yg thu, lebey sibuk canang mane 1 verb yg betul n so on. Walhal yg paper kitowunk bungkus tu, paper calculation weyh! Ade ke logic paper yg patutnye diajar dalam bentuk number, tetibe bile masuk kelas, kene dengar pasal grammar. Tak haru hidup kitowunk....

Tp, benda best sem ny bile aq tgk result, Alhamdulillah...dean gak! Finally, tak sia2 aq investigate lecturer yg masyuk. Aq repeat paper thu dengan one of our best lecturer for that subject. Seketul2 beliau ajar kitowunk smpi bukan tahap faham ag, tp bapak expert jadinya. Bile amek kelas thu dengan beliau, punye ah aq regret cuz rase time sem 3 thu aq buang kredit hours aq dengan menjahanamkan sekali pointer aq. Time thu r gak lagu Ungu Andaiku Tahu thu berlagu sendiri kat kepale aq. Before final exam, g bilik beliau tgk carry mark, rupe-rupenye Baru Ku Sedar, bak kate Lotter, bilik lec aq thu sebelah jep dengan bilik ex-lec aq..huahuahua..idea jahanam pown datang.... Aq ngan member aq usha r markah mid sem budak-budak ex-lec aq thu.. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hebat kowt, majority 30 over hundred.. kelas kitowunk dengan lec repeat aq ny, majority 80 over hundred.. besar beza weyh.. nah, next time, cari lec yg betul-betul MASYUK!

End of semester, result untuk repeat paper aq thu, two thumbs up la.. thanx aq ucpkan untuk Miss Yuhaniz...miss, u’r the best! Lecturing us in a very great way! Then, lecturer yg ajar aq subjek Branding and Advertising, these two papers are for my minor in Marketing. Even aq sebenarnye pakse rela amek Business Administration, aq tetap suke habis kat paper Marketing. One of the reason, lecturer Marketing aq sume happy go lucky, fun, and yg plg penting, dowunk igt kat aq yg memang mmmmm apew eyk... aq pown tak tau nk ckp mcm ne, but most of my lecturer memang igt aq. Sebabnye?? Muke ny la yg akan buat presentation.. yg selalu kene tanye dlm kelas..aduyai..

Sir Romle, he’s a very funny guy! Lecturer mane yg sanggup wat iklan Bank Rakyat dlm kelas?? Tp beliau buat, dan sudahnye kelas yg berlangsung pd waktu mimpi indah terlakar jd haru biru! Dan beliau cukup igt kat aq cuz, aq la student yang call beliau 2 jam before exam nak tanye all those terms yang aq tak phm. Beliau siap tanye, “kenapa telefon sekarang?” dan aq buat suara toya jawab, “sebab malam ny exam sir”. Beliau jawab balik, “saya suka jawapan awak”. And the rest is history...

Sir Zahari, sekali pandang mcm bapak singa. Mase 1st beliau masuk kelas, senyum pown tak tp bile lecture start, hell yeah! Kena dajal kitowunk dengan lawak beliau. Satu yg best about beliau ny, beliau buat lawak mcm mane pown, muke beliau begitu jugak. Pattern muke tak bersalah. Sudahnya, kitowunk yang kena dajal bukan ag bulat-bulat, tp segala bentuk yg ade kat alam semesta ny. The best thing about him, tak kedekut ilmu. Baik untuk subjek dunia mahupun akhirat..

Sir Hasnizam, very cute, mcm mirmo zibang..hahaha.. maybe becuz he’s quite chubby and he love entertainment. Maybe becuz beliau lectures Branding yg related to Advertising, so beliau lebih suka tayang iklan or video or share his experiences time further study dulu rather than ajar kitownk seketul-seketul mcm yg ada dlm buku. Assignment mcm tak nak mati berdiri plak. But, at the end, banyak kitowunk belajar daripada beliau. Beliau cukup suke bertanya kat certain student dlm kelas thu. Ogaya and Stacy, these two foreign students yg jadi fav beliau instead of other foreign students. And local students, normally he kept ambush Ram, Intan, Seri, Pei Yuan, and Me itself. So, better to get ready about any brands in the world and try to relate those entire brands with marketing theory. Huahuahua... and aq still contact dengan beliau even sem ny tamat dah..

Dr Salniza, she’s damn good! As Advertising lecturer, tiap kali masuk kelas, kitowunk sume ny akan disarapankan dengan tayangan iklan yg menang award. Well, kelas pukul 8 pagi kak long oi..tak sempat sarapan kat bilik, sarapan jep la dalam kelas tgk iklan.. tapi, beliau memang sowunk lec yg cukup banyak ckp dengan kata-kata yang sometimes sounds a bit sarcastic. Haha.. Sarcastic in her sense of humour. Dan beliau gak yang bagi talk untuk kursus kitowunk yg merupakan junior consultant.

Kenapa tibe-tibe aq story pasal lec aq?? Sesuai r dengan title, Aku, Beliau, & Kampus. Beliau yg aq maksudkan ny la merupakan lecturer yang dah chill mood aq dlm kelas..dari jadi superman kat atas meja sambil wat peta dunia, semua students dlm kelas dh mula concentrate kat skrin bile lecturer yg aq sebut thu masuk kelas. Including lec repeat paper aq thu..rmi ag lec yg aq suke, tp nk cite sume melampau r..tak cukup pages kang..hahaha..

Well, to all bebudak yg this year amek SPM and STPM, sure dah ade perancangan sendiri to sketch their future kan.. even mase budak-budak ny masuk kampus time aq dah bersara dari campus life, tp aq still nk nasihat cket r.. pilih course yg betul-betul kowunk minat and sesuai dengan capability msg-msg. Minat jep tak cukup nk guarantee kite akan success dlm bidang yg kite nak. Mcm aq la, sebenarnye nk amek law, tp time STPM tak dpt straight A’s, tak dpt r gak kan.. sume yg kenal aq ckp, dira, u should’nt be here, u should do law. Well, rezeki takde, but life must go on. Business not bad gak, siap kene amek paper law ag. Hahaha terubat cket la jiwa aq yg tak rela before this.

So adik-adik out there, when the time utk jd freshie dh tibe, please jaga diri.. jauh daripada parents, make sure tak jatuh ke landasan yg salah.. Right or wrong thu pilihan sendiri..if silap langkah, no matter what you wanna offer to the world to rewind the past, it’s never gonna work..On that time u will say to Ur ownself, how silly I am?? And the rest, u takes it as Ur big lesson...chill!